Wednesday, 23 November 2011

Rediscovery

Rediscovery of this blog, that is.
I'm very, very sorry about my absence. It hasn't been related to my mood particularly, in that, I haven't felt especially good or bad in a way that would stop me from blogging. Mostly, I think I have been in a bit of denial about depression; trying to hope it will go away by ignoring it and trying to get on with my life, rather than accepting it and actively working to make things better.
That's only something that I've realised in the past few weeks, and it has made a difference to my behaviour and mood. Denial might not have a negative effect, but it prevents the action necessary for positive effects. I always thought that accepting depression would increase its unwanted impacts on my life; walking up and reminding myself that I have depression so that I remember to do something to counteract it. With the help of my therapist, I have learnt that that doesn't have to be the case. I can be mindful of my mental health and general well being without depression being an all-pervading entity. I am not waking up and reminding myself I am depressed, I am waking up and reminding myself to do something to make me feel good today. Whether you're depressed or not, that's a pretty good way to start a day! I've not perfected it yet, surprisingly, but I am trying; sometimes that's all you can do.
I hope to be blogging here much more often with things I have been trying and how they have or haven't worked for me.

I hope you are all doing well,
Betty
x

1 comment:

  1. "Nice to read one of your posts, again." Seems an odd thing to type, given the content but you know what I mean.
    Interesting though. I might try it myself. Wake up and think "do something to make me feel good" :-)

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